I did it again!
I’ve recently put an affirmation on my wall, “MAKE YOURSELF
PROUD TODAY”. Yes, me, the laugh at the silliness of
affirmations girl. Me, the one who made her partner take
that crap off of our walls some time ago.
The affirmation has helped almost daily to motivate me to do
things which contributed to my reason for being. Some days
it’s making that call to a friend who’s been leaving
messages. Other times its following through on a project,
or washing the clothes because I said it would. And still
there are days when I touch the world profoundly in my way.
Today was a, TOUCH THE WORLD PROFOUNDLY IN MY WAY day.
Today I gathered together some relatively like-minded people
and we talked about what mattered. We listened to each
other. We did not judge each other. There was advice to be
given and possibly taken. There was connection. There was
relating to souls just because they are going through this
being human thing too.
Someone, or two, will go home tonight and think in a
different way. One might do something completely different
tomorrow and change their worlds. I betcha that will
happen. I know that it will.
What happened for me was someone said something that hit me
in the gut, so much so, I kept looking at her throughout the
evening, feeling loved by someone who probably doesn’t even
know the spelling of my name yet. I felt understood; I felt
so, alright, knowing that she knew what it felt like to be
me and to be in the middle of this particular struggle.
Thank you. Thank you. I search the whole world it seems,
for understanding, looking for someone to say what I did not
say or cannot say myself. Waiting for someone to say, Oh
girl, me too. I do that too. Thank you.
Thanks also to the lovely and perfect humans who shared.
They shared not only the pretty and interesting, but what
can be troublesome and ugly about themselves. Life isn’t
always a Luther song, and they know this and embrace this.
What about help? I can get used to people caring about me
and helping me. It so warms me up to be in the company of
people who want to help me. Nothing to get in return,
shoot, they even paid, they just helped because I asked for
it.
So today was one of those days that I did it. I made myself
proud. Thank you to everyone who contributed to that
today. Today I was who I think I am.